Ok, so the title and the post don't connect but I can't think of anything better and I'm OCD enough to fill out the title before I do the post. Go figure.
N's project in Switzerland got extended by a year so what was a vacation has turned out to be more. Much more.
I've gone and quit my job. Last Friday was my last day and I'm still feeling awful about it. I think I'd managed to find that oh-so-elusive perfect job, which managed to keep me busy without neglecting the family while also giving monetary satisfaction. So it was that much harder for me to decide to leave. But then it was a toss between continuing to have a long distance marriage (N's been onsite since last Oct) and depriving BB and N of each other's company or giving up something I love doing. Sigh. Morally, ethically and in pretty much every other way, this is a no-brainer but I'm rather irrational when it comes to my job and I almost chose the former *shifts guiltily*. However, good sense (read parents, N, the world, and it's brother) prevailed and I have entered the realms of SAHMhood. I have no idea if I'll be able to start off from where I stopped. Hell, I don't even know if I'll change my mind and decide that this SAHM thing really is great, although right now there seems a very slim chance of that happening! But now that I have made my bed, I better lie in it. Comfortably, or at least without becoming a martyr. So far, it's been good. BB's rather surprised that mama doesn't disappear for long hours and gives me a puzzled look when I tell her that mama doesn't have to go to office anymore. I am enjoying all the time I spend with her but a part of me misses the deadlines, meetings, and insanity of working. My manager's told me that I am eligible for rehire and I have my fingers crossed. Let's hope they will be recruiting when I come back next year!
I'm off to Switzerland for a year. Excitement! No, wait. Cold feet. First trip abroad. To a place where English isn't the first language. Managing home and baby single-handedly after a long period of being pampered and aided by my parents. This is how far I get before I hyperventilate. I don't even want to contemplate the winding up and shopping that needs to be done before I leave, which is sometime at the end of the month or early Aug. Suddenly my vacation has turned into a nightmare. My main worry is about entertaining BB for 10 hours a day while also cooking, cleaning and whatever else. It doesn't help that BB thinks my sole purpose on earth is to play with and entertain her. But I don't really blame her. I'm at my mom's place and consequently I don't have much to do and end up playing with her most of the time. Again, I think I should do a separate post on this.
The only bright spot I see in this situation is that I'll get more time to update my blog :). I hope. Wish me luck, people; I'm going to need it!
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July 02, 2008
About BonBon and Noodlehead...
Posted by Noodlehead at 10:13 PM
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it's freaky how we go through similar things at around the same time. i'm going to be sahming too - i don't know for how long. it's a decision i took, unlike you, but one that i'm nevertheless nervous about.
and yeah, entertaining the noo for 10 hours a day freaks me out too.
:/
well, atleast we'll have each other to turn to for advice and whine to.
any progress on the stopping over here?
whow!! lotsa big changes!!
am sure you will do just fine inspite of all your apprehensions!! :)
it is ofcos a scary thing to be SAHM afta working all your life! and i ever have to quit i am sure i will go through similar stuff!
but hey, we women are very strong and yet flexible! so am sure things will turn out super for you!!
and you can look fwd to Boo guiding you a bit more about whole Swiss thingie!! :)
all the best and sending up a prayer! :)
hugs
abha
Now don't pass the whole thing to bonbon saying they need to see each other too! You can also sya that you also need some hubby time *wink* *wink* :D
Am glad for you! I know it will be tough doing all the things all by yourself especially when we are so pampered here in India by our parents and having maids around. But O'm sure you will do good!
hey girl
such decisions aint easy - n yeah invariably such decisions are always taen by the mom. but im sure you have analysed it wel enough to see that the benefits are worth it.
where is swiss land r u going? my sis was there for 6 yrs - n well - dont mean to scare u - but life in a non-english courntyr is a bit hard. othe first 2 yrs are fun tho - so one year - im sure u will enjoy yourself
lotsa fun things there - great clean place, weird anoncastic ppl (men at work signs for sumthing as silly as a pink flower growing in a patch of red flowers), delicious chocolates...to name a few :)
im sure u will have a blast - all the best dear :)
btw teenz also quit - will be joining her hubby in the us of a
mona - looks like we're astral twins girl ;) tickets still not booked, waiting for paperwork. i do hope we can have a day at dubai...i'm simply dying to meet u and noo!
abha - u make me feel so much better! thanks for the prayer. hugs!
nm - *blushing* got me, dintcha :) yeah, i miss N lke crazy and i'm not sure i wanna be by myself any longer.
chitty cat - we're going to baden, that's about an hour away from zurich. N says it's a spa town and there are tons of tourists around so English is good in most places. But I think I'll take a basic german course once i get there! udee told me about teenz.
good luck noodlez!
it will be good
Hey, you will manage all right I think :)
All the very best.
Will look forward to posts from you from the Swiss :)
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